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A little about me:
My testimony in short.....
Hello and Thank you for stopping by my page! Here is a bit of personal information, for anyone who would like to know me better!!I am really no one special! Except it be not for the Cross of Calvary! So as you come here, your meeting a very broken woman, I see my need for Yeshua every second of every day. I am a mom of 3 kids, of my own and 3 of my husbands...however my oldest two are in College and my baby is in High School...my husbands 3 kid's do not live with us. I used to think I could never be used of God since I was divorced, I was damaged goods. My thinking used to be, that it was a sin God could not forgive. But I now know after many years of healing post divorce, that God can even use a donkey if need be!!Amen!But I can tell you divorce was the very last option after 18 years of a serious endeavor, it was choose death or him...there is not enough space in here to elaborate, except to say I was spared from my personal Egypt, God saved me from a Hellish life, and I dance the happy dance now!Amen!So it leads me to the person I am now, I am striving to understand our Messianic roots, after all when it comes down to it, who wrote the Bible? The Jewish people, it was meant to be understood as such! And we now have grace under the new Law, but the old Law also offers blessings for its obedience! As far as the person I am, I am a honest transparent person, almost to a fault. Its just how God made me!A bit more pertinent history...I was married 18 years to my 1st husband, and was single 7 years after that. I just felt I needed to have some serious healing take place before I dared to add anyone new to the equation, at the time I had 3 kids at home, I experience life as a single momma 1st hand. I was so very lonely, and also very broken. The Lord Himself filled all of the aching places, one scripture, sermon, and song at a time. I focused on being being the best example to my children I could in the faith, everything else took 2nd place. We had some awesome memories and some very sad ones. My 1st baby died after a violent attack from my then husband, in my 7th month of pregnancy, I was not alive in Christ at the time of his death..but my 11 year old daughter also died and come back to me as well, after a horrible car crash...no one could ever tell me God does not heal...ever, we have the proof of that!Its only fair you see into a little of the challenges I have endured to really know me the person I have grown into!!Then God allowed my Anthony to enter our lives...we both knew it was the Lord, from the first meeting. October 1, 08 we were married 5 years!!We have faced a lot of upheaval since we got married relocating 5 times in two years.....at one point all of his kids were with us, but in the end they are with their mother, in Oklahoma. I have such a heart for the hurting and those who have never known a relationship, with the Father God....After I dared to know the Lord I have been blessed to have both my parents follow me to the Cross, then one of my brothers also gave his heart to the Lord, he ministers a small church and does prison ministry in Kansas penitentiaries, and even has found favor with the schools in Kansas, they are taking ex prisoners in and speaking to the kids! The Lord has been Faithful to take our filthy rags and redeem them for His plans! I have been a worship team leader and taught children's church, I was involved with associational work years back in a denominational church, I was in a hand bell Choir, and directed drama for children's Church...these days I am out of the loop....I can not say I am doing anything other then keeping our family alter, crying out for the lost from our home, sometimes I just lead worship for an audience of one! I have been invited to do mission trips to Africa and I know some day God could make that happen, but for now, we wait for direction, my hubbie is such a giver..as am I, little brings greater peace in our hearts...but we both know, were called for such a time as this...so we wait upon the Lord...were certainly not perfect people, we have area all the time we need washed with the blood of the Lord, we are both crazy in love with our Messiah!And would definitely follow Him no matter what it looks like, or how it feels! Its common to see me belting out worship love songs while drive my car around town, at times singing even while I am out and about shopping...I just love the Lord so much I vowed to never be ashamed of Him no matter where I am, or how it looks..... I will speak out even in quiet churches if the spirit of God so leads...for I am called to be real!I used to bring home friends I made from church and would pray with them and we would have a time of private worship, and I would help my friends to over come fear of Holy boldness worship, teaching them by example how to worship in the Prophetic, crying out for the nations, and for entire cities...and expressing the complete abandoning of self to Yeshua.....Its hard for me to stop once I get in that place, many times I am powerless to move, I sence Gods very presence right where we are, and weeping will follow.....I can not say if its anyone else's experience or if its correct, but I can say I know my Father, and long to be near Him all the time, He alone is mt hearts desire...no one else on Earth compares.......I do not long to have fame or hold some lofty position...I long for the presence of the one and true living God...for that to take place my must be constantly examining my heart...when God showed up in the old Testament, if man had sin in His heart he was dead, they would just die!......I need His leading and His presence...So I strive to be as He would have me to be, according to the Word!Now I am a mom, and I have this life I live...sure I have things that I am interested in, but Father is always 1st!I enjoy interior design, and home improvements. I am eclectic in my music taste....and come out of the heavy metal era...some of the tunes speak life most don't..so they exist more in my past...Its not I who lives, but Christ in me...I am no longer the person who once existed, under this name.....my name actually means "song"..some how I still see it as Prophetic......I am basically here in Shoutlife...to meet as many people as I can, and share God's love with them and to grow in the Lord and understand better the Messianic Heritage..and fully support Israel in doing so! But I pray, Abba Father allows divine appointments, and if possible I could be used of Him to speak life and encouragement!!Thats who I am in a nut shell, and when I need it you will do the same as the Holy Spirit leads!On a more personal note.......
Its typical in our home to have kids hang out, of all ages my college age sons friends love to hang here and my daughters teen friends also love to hanging out here...I am so drawn to kids who are hurting. And it happens everywhere I am at in churches, the girls who are cutters befriend me and boys who have had bad things happen, have just poured out their hearts...and I allow God to minister. Its never me, I love on them, no matter who likes it, and give them my number, and call them when they are not there.....I have a lot of lil buddies all over I have been honored through Christ to minister to...guess I am just "un pegable" can really put any label on me, other then servant. Yuppers that me!Truly I am not telling you all this to gain some "oh look at her" title...... I am just not into living my life just for me...and if I send any message thats the one I would, choose to convey! My heart is always open to give God's love and I am a very non-judgmental person...you will not catch me on some trashing another person trip...even if they so call deserve it..Christ died for us while we were yet sinners...that means while we were smack dab in the middle of the worst thing we ever did, He seen worth...can you imagine that...many people their whole lives have felt like 2nd rate humans because they have been told they were worthless!!!I say a great big NOT!!!!!Your value far extends any worth man could put a label on!!!As we keep that in mind...Love is the greatest of all these!Let us love one another as He has loved us!


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